Update - Been Away too long
3:00 in the morning and I cannot sleep.
Wrote a poem on my Helium account on depression. Such an ugly thing.
Thinking about how long its been since last posting here and wondering why all of us writers are so dang crazy(smile). It seems the creative mind is also a wandering mind....hard to stay focused on one project before we are excited about another.
I have abandoned so many of my babies....
But, I think I would be remiss, if I did not comment on this wonderful historical moment in time that we are all experiencing here in the good ole' US of A. I can tell you that I honestly don't think I ever contemplated a black man for president...not really. As much as I love my white folks...I know its hard to tell by my writing sometimes, but I do love my white folk (humor people), I never thought our country would embrace a black man in this way. I am overjoyed to see the unity Barack is bringing to our nation. And the hope. Because I have lost a lot of hope over the past few years.
I watched two presidential elections get stolen and for the past eight years I have been convinced that we are owned by a super world mafia and G.W. is the lieutenant. He does what the boss says and if the rest of us don't listen.....and if there is some collateral damage to keep the business running...oh well. But what do I know?
.....Anyway even though I think we have a really scary, crooked government, I am feeling this little burn of hope stirring up in side of me. Just the realization that we have a black man and a woman on the ticket and one of them will definitely be the democratic candidate is something for us all to celebrate!
I love the Clinton's. Bill is just so damn sexy....yeah I said it. He has that x factor that makes you believe he is talking to you. I know he has offended many people on this campaign trail but life was good with the Clinton's and I'd like life to feel good again. He has so much class too....okay, maybe poor judgment sometimes with women, but I haven't met a man yet who hasn't been literally blown away from his good common sense. The tale of two brains. We all know it.
Still, my personal experience with Bill was so impressive, he is a class act to me. He knows how to connect to people, all people and I truly believe that is what made him such an effective president.
Last year when my grandmother was turning 100(and she just turned 101 btw), I sent a request to President Clinton for he and his wife to attend our celebration. I sent one to Barack too. What I got from Bill was a hand signed birthday greeting with the official presidential seal for my grandmother, and a personal phone call from his staff to me, to congratulate our family on this milestone, but graciously decline my invitation. That's a class act to me.
I never did hear back from Obama.
Yet, on election day when I got ready to touch the screen to cast my vote, my finger went straight to Obama! It even surprised me. As a black woman, ( who probably has less African blood in me than Barack) I wanted to vote for the woman but also felt an obligation to vote black. Hey, I am being honest here folks. If you are either of these identifiers I am certain you felt the same dilemma....go on, admit it.
Still when it came down to it, I had to vote with my conscience. I love Ms. Hillary. She is one tough cookie and so intelligent. She had a vision for herself and has stuck to it despite anything that life has thrown her. Do ya'll know how difficult that is? She has the connections and inner understandings of what really goes on at the White house. I think she would be an awesome president...really I do.
But, I also think the same things I love about her, are the same things that might keep her from being able to make the changes we need in America. I think every good old boy aka the federalist in America and every crazy misogynistic leader in foreign territories would fight her tooth and nail.
With all that said I grope with the idea of Barack taking on all of the mess G.W. and his administration have made, and a part of me wonders if he is naive or if I am.
What I mean is, does he really understand how corrupt our government is and still think he will be able to change it? Or am I so naive to think he doesn't know how corrupt our government is and that he doesn't know exactly what he is getting himself in to?
What I do believe, is that our country is more willing to look at Obama's white genes and say, "well he's not really black"...than accept a woman. Especially a smart, tough cookie like Hillary.
So, during the Georgia election I voted for Obama with hope for change. I am still hoping today and hoping sometime in my life, race and gender won't matter.
And that whole not really black thing is so stupid...(trust me, as a light complected black person I have had those words said to me by both black and white people....we are a category all to ourselves in the eyes of others)..... 'cause most of us light bright and nearly white are unmistakably and sometimes radically black!
I know the pundits and political strategist have given us cause to pause with the Rev. Wright drama, but I think even most white people understand that folks have a special relationship with our pastors. We don't agree with or believe in everything they say. We even cringe sometimes or gasp in church at their comments....and we go home and pray for them. We chew the meat and spit out the bones.
Barack is the type of man who would not dare run from an inflammatory pastor, but would rather stay to influence change. He's like the black people who stayed in the south after freedom from slavery, (and before). They could have run to the North and sought out a better way of living, joining in the white groups who believed in humanity if not equality. Yet, they stayed behind. Some even fought for the land they worked on as they endured to change the minds of the people they knew were so very wrong. Many people can't understand that, but many people can and I think in spite of all the coverage the media and the republicans will give to this issue, it will only strengthen those of us who are tired of the division and want a truly united America.
Whichever way it goes, we are all fortunate to be witnesses to this historical moment in time. May you do the right thing and participate in the process.
God Bless!
That's melavision. What's yours?
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